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You want to meet and talk.
You want a proper closure.
The human heart.
is ever so self-serving.

Many want to know the details.
They are shocked.
At my rage and disappointment.
All these years they have known me,
they have not seen.
My refusal to even listen to your voice or seeing you,
stems from a very broken heart.

For you have single-handledly destroyed what we built,
and what I planned for our future.

You dream of having a small pad.
One which you can call your own,
I saved.

You dream of a career transition,
one from pushing a cart,
to one which I can put on a flying pin
and proudly call you Captain oh my Captain.
I saved.

You dream the day when your loved one can send/pick you up from the airport,
To see the joy and the bliss on your face.
I saved.

I scrimp and save.
Shelving my own.
Nevermind about the materials.
Because there was a future.
There was a goal.
Or so I thought.

I thank you.
For breaking these dreams and plans so effortlessly.
First, by sms.
The last, by msn.
I deserve better.
Even if it is just a breakup.

How do I and how can I ever fathom,
the one whom I loved so dearly,
take this so lightly,
and to smash a future so quickly.

What were your plans for us.
Your bags and designers, perhaps.
I never ask.

You broke my heart.
When I said so, I mean so.
You will never know the pain.
NO, I mean NO.
if you want to understand,
if what you saw at PLAY pained and angered you.
Multiply it by a thousand times.
is just merely a faction of what I feel.

Leave me alone.
And let me be.
Because it's time,
To love myself, again.
To be myself, again.

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I have treated you fair, just and with, love.
Your tears and pleads, I heard.
It's a child's game to you.
Of losing and not getting it back.
I have warned you once and you done it twice.
You broke my heart. It will take time to heal.
I laughed. How easy and careless of you.
Your clothes and belongings have been washed and packed.
Come collect yourself.
Cos I don't owe you a living.

I smiled and I will do so, whenever I see you again.

ps I: As for your constant monthly supply of health supplements and birdnests (ah yes, I love you stupid enough to even buy you one more month, And I guess you shall not need it with all your freaking stupid nonsenses and insecurities)

ps II: Pls don't make me laugh big time about your sacrifices because I have yet to make (and I don't intend to) the calculations of the paid overseas trips, gifts and local spendings. It's very high maintenance to have a trolly dolly partner, now I know.

ps III: Of course, the financial sacrifices is nothing compare to the emotional damages you have done - priceless.

ps IV: As for the huge sum I put aside in the seperate account for our 2nd house and car (yes, this is how much I am willing to do for you, and our future), I'm glad I adopted a wait-and-see attitude.


With regards to you, this will be my last post. Typing this and pondering over you is really, a waste of time. Now you know why I refused to answer any of your calls or reply to your sms-es and msn-es.

To think you have the audacity to threaten me again? Twice with break-ups and now? I given you everything with unconditional love. And what have you shown me so far? You have not seen what I am make of. I didn't survive from nothing on nothing. Come, and I'll take you on, face-to-face. To deal with your immaturity is a small feat.

It's over, so stop your child's game.

If you think you can get to me through my friends, think again.

And to that bestest friend of yours, Mr Ong who have been dropping hints and telling you things yet presenting me a different story all these while. Thanks for making me learn. Learning from the best, nevertheless. The best. *smiles*